Not to be touched

30 January 2019

It seemed to me that nothing was worth so much as the mortification of my feelings, distancing myself from a carnal and worldly view. Then, when I’d turned in on myself, not allowing anything human to touch me. Talking only to God, I wanted to live beyond the goings-on of the world, to experience divine revelations, to really become an untarnished mirror of God, taking light from the Light and being illumined in my darkness. Even in this life, I wanted to harvest the fruits of the hoped-for, future blessings, leaving behind the earth and consorting with the angels.