I’m reconciled to him

I don’t know by what means or method I can bind this friend of mine (i.e. the body) and condemn him. Because, before I can bind him, he gets free and before I can condemn him, I’m reconciled to him. Before I can punish him, I feel sorry for him, become reconciled to him and soften towards him. How can I defeat him, whom by nature I love? How can I free myself from him to whom I’m bound eternally. How can I get rid of him, who will be raised with me? (Ladder 15, 83).